Corals. The laboratory is gearing up for another coral sampling trip along the southern coast of Puerto Rico. We sample just off of La Parguera (with our collaborators at the University of Puerto Rico) - at the reef's Enrique and Turrumote and Media Luna. During my first visit, almost a year ago now, I had tried to prepare myself for what the reefs might look like - but I wasn't prepared for the quiet, for the stillness - for the greyness. The reefs are still alive - but they are in transition, a transition that is reducing their diversity, their productivity, their vitality - soon they will not be the same coral reefs that my colleagues have visited weekly for years. During this trip we will expand our sampling efforts to two more coral species (for a total of five) - one of which is on the endangered species list, Acropora cervicornis.
Corals and Impediments. Our biggest challenge is transporting our corals - getting them back to the laboratory with as little harm done to their microbial communities as possible - frozen samples, samples at certain required temperatures....getting through the USDA checkpoints in San Juan, crossing our fingers that when the FedEx guy says that they won't irradiate the samples, that he means it -- all of the permits are in place for the sampling, but translating the permits activity to actual transport seems to be a bit challenging sometimes. Plus, it's not the best time to be transporting microbial cultures - we do our initial plating of coral mucus in the field lab - we do what we can, but during most of the process we just have our fingers crossed, hoping that we've thought through the process and haven't left out something important. We're getting better at it.
Science. But each new sampling trip sends the lab into a period of renewed optimism - while this next group of samples confirm what we are observing? Or will a new trend be observed? Or will the data only result in more confusion, the need for additional samples, and a new approach? We recently got some pretty exciting data - the results of running one sample of coral mucus microbial community DNA through a functional gene array. We 'saw' for the first time what is most likely the predominant functional genes - genes involved in such processes as sulfur and nitrogen cycling and methane generation...and on and on...almost 1,200 genes revealing the role of the microorganisms in key nutrient cycling processes of the coral holobiont. During this sampling trip, we'll start obtaining samples that will allow us to start following the changes in functional gene potential of the microbial community during coral holobiont disease progression. Our hypotheses? That changes in microbial community structure due to disease influences a key sub-population in the community that contributes to coral death. That corals that can recover from disease events recruit back the necessary community - either the same 'group' of microorganisms or possibly even a different 'group' - but organisms with redundancy in their functional gene potential. In other words: who cares what the microbes name is, along as it has the ability to fix nitrogen.
Science and Impediments. Now, here's where it gets challenging. On more than one occasion I've posted about issues for women in science (well, at least my own issues) - and while sometimes I could state it more broadly, it always seems to come down to the same bottomline: it's hard to be at the table, to be seen and heard - and the battle for equal footing is a constant one. I've always said that individually each 'experience' seems trivial - but it's the compilation of daily experiences that combine to create a mountain-sized challenge that is oppressive. Today's example: I get stopped by a colleague who mentions that our program had brought in a visiting scientist (a marine mammal) person that has access to different 'pots' of money for marine mammal research (of which I have one grant pending to fund). It ends up that the program sequestered this person and that only three males in our program had been scheduled to meet with her (I had no idea she was even coming to visit - nor did the other female PI in our program - and we both have an on-going marine mammal project) - and my colleague said "Oh, we do need to remember to include you more often" which is simply condescending as hell...and then the conversation transitions to the fact that they might actually 'need' me - because some of the work that this visiting scientist was interested in was related to hydrocarbon impacts on dolphin health, and of course they know nothing about hydrocarbons. So my colleague says 'perhaps you could be a consultant or collaborator on a grant we submit so that we can be legitimate in the hydrocarbon arena' and I'm thinking: A collaborator? A consultant? I'm a Prinicipal Investigator - geez, what are these guys thinking? That I'm here to lend them my CV when they need me - so that I can help them (as tenured Full Professors) to get funding when they do nothing to support me as a more junior Associate Professor? When they don't even think to include me in the opportunity to begin with? So I respond that if they need a Co-Principal Investigator on the proposal, to let me know - and I walk away - because these guys are simply so clueless it is hardly worth saying much more (and also because I said more before, over and over again, and gotten nowhere). So -- individually this was a 7 minute conversation in a long and productive day -- but this treatment every day, every week - results in lost opportunity - lost opportunities, and I'm frankly wondering when it all ends - when my publication list will be long enough, when my grant portfolio will contain enough digits, when my years of experience will be sought out for it's equal contribution and not just as a last minute add-on in a time of need. It's such bullshit. Exhausting bullshit.
So it's nights like this, when I feel the lingering excitement of my lab's science, when new ideas have been floating around the lab all day - when one lit search leads to changing an old idea and a new dataset generates a whim of a hypothesis that grows throughout the afternoon - it's after a day when I'm convinced more than ever that we're on the right track but then I have a 7 minute conversation that sidetracks me, attempts to put me in another space - a space where I'm less than I can be, where I feel that I'm only there to support the scientific pursuits of others - it's after those days that I come home and crave (besides a glass of wine) the blossoming blogosphere of sites written by women in science - and find comfort in their battles and their successes and their words and know that what I am doing is very, very much worth it. (It was only 7 minutes out of an otherwise very good day). Something new that I found tonight (and hope to contribute to in the future as soon as I figure out how): Scientiae
This is a blog carnival that compiles posts written about the broad topic of "women in STEM," (STEM=science, technology, engineering and mathematics) and may include posts:
stories about being a woman in STEM
exploring gender and STEM academia
living the scientific academic life as well as the rest of life
discussing how race, sexuality, age, nationality and other social categories intersect with the experience of being a woman in STEM
sharing feminist perspectives on science and technology
exploring feminist science and technology studies
Both men and women (and anyone in-between) are welcome to contribute to the carnival as long as the topics are relevant and respectful.
And another site: Women in Science
This is in addition to ones that I've already written about here and here...it's definitely a growing - and strong - community. I'm so glad that they are out there, and I'm glad that they are sharing their experiences.
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